"Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it." (Matt 10:39, NIV)
As I’ve sipped my morning coffee this past week near the window, I’ve been mesmerized by the falling orange and yellow leaves. Sometimes they dance down one by one. But sometimes a gust of wind comes that causes a multitude of leaves to fall at once.
Watching this beautiful process reminds me of Jesus saying, "...whoever loses their life for my sake will find it" (Matt 10:39b, NIV).
I first started seeing this verse in a new light after I decided to let go of my identity as a musician. As a singer/songwriter in Nashville, I didn’t like who I was becoming: someone who wasn’t happy for the success of others, someone who networked more than friendshipped, and someone who was just plain tired. It came time to loosen my grip and let that identity float away.
And like the winter trees, I felt bare. Music was my main identity since my mom found out I could carry a tune, and then one day it wasn’t. But over time, letting that main source of self-worth loose opened up space for God to work and create new growth in me.
While there are moments in our lives where we choose to let things go, there are also moments when the winds of life force us to let things go.
Anyone who’s been through a dark night of the soul knows that deep heartache, devastating loss, or traumatic events can rearrange everything we know about ourselves, our relationships, and our lives. We’re forced to let go of our old way of being in the world and in the transition we can feel stuck in a perpetual frost.
And if you’ve been experiencing some chilly days as of late, rest assured that God promises new life on the other side.
For every part of yourself that you’ve had to let go, God brings forth new growth, new ways of being, and a deeper understanding of God’s loving presence.
by Erica Smith
Nature noticer, contemplative wannabe, coffee drinker, wine taster, and novice painter.